“I am not enough.” This is a belief/myth that has followed me around my entire life. It is my constant companion, whispering in my ear, “I am not enough. I’m not enough. I’m not enough. Be more. Do more. You’re a fraud. You’ll never be enough”. Because I’m … a woman, a person of color, not a size 0 … the list goes on. I know this is bullsh*t, but still … I believe: “I’m not enough”. And I’m really tired of it. It’s time to Rise Strong.
This weekend when I sat down to write today’s post, I had a bunch of great ideas floating around in my brain. They, of course, needed more fleshing out but would make good, solid posts when finished. However, I wasn’t in the mood to write them. Nope. I was feeling goofy and didn’t want to talk about money or mindfulness. I had pep in my step (like my cat, Max, does every day) and wanted to stay in that silly space for a little bit longer. I decided to embrace my goofiness (and write down my post ideas since I’m getting forgetful in my old age), and I’m here to spread happiness today!
I decided to stay with the Spring Cleaning theme this week and feature a DIY all-purpose cleaner. Now as I mentioned in Monday’s post, I don’t like to clean. At all. Many of my friends find it relaxing. Me, not so much. Don’t get me wrong: I enjoy having a clean house, but in my dreams — someone else cleans it for me. Every time I get it Martha Stewart ready, it manages to get destroyed within five minutes. I blame Max. He blames me. He is probably right.
The forecast shows sunny days with fresh-cut green grass and brightly-colored tulips in our near future as Winter winds down and Spring approaches. This is also the time of year where many people get the itch to give their home a good cleaning in preparation for Summer barbecues and activities. That bug has never bitten me. Ever. Don’t got me wrong — a clean home feels great but I hate cleaning. Some people find it very zen to clean; I find it to be an annoying, required task. In an attempt to put off cleaning (or procrastinate), I thought about how spring cleaning your life should become an annual ritual too.
It’s the first Thursday of March (how can that be true?), so it’s time for another review of the books I loved, liked and loathed. The good news is that February was a very good reading month for me with no book earning the dreaded “loathe” honor. This makes me very happy because bad books are painful. What made me less happy was that I forgot how much our “mood” dictates what we feel like reading. Or at least it does for me.
Justify is a great television show that I miss deeply. Justify My Love is a classic Madonna song, although not my personal favorite. Justify How I Spend My Money is my daily mantra as I frequently felt compelled to defend my choices around money, even if it was only in my head. It had become such an ingrained habit that I no longer thought much about it until I read 4 Reasons You’ll Never Be Debt Free by my friend, Laurie, aka The Frugal Farmer. She noted that people stay stuck in debt because they care too much what others think. This is very true. We also fall prey to this phenomena whether we have debt or not.