I gave a brief review of The Year of Yes by Shonda Rhomes in the Books I Loved, Liked and Loathed in March, but I wanted to go a bit deeper on this very special book. Full and fair disclosure: I don’t watch any of her shows. Zip. Zero. Nada. In other words, I’m a not diehard fan who thinks she farts lollipops and gumdrops and can do no wrong. I do, however, have mad respect for her accomplishments, which is why I read her book. What I didn’t expect was how relatable she would be. Like Shonda, I was a child who lived in her head, dreaming up an imaginary world. And today is someone who needs to start saying “yes” to living.
It’s time for another edition of The Books I Loved, Liked and Loathed, which sounds like a bad country song. 🙂 Seriously, though, this is my favorite post every month because I am a huge bookworm who loves to read and talk about books. Unfortunately, this month was a mixed bag for me. There were highs; there were lows. And lots of swearing and eye-twitching too. In other words, the perfect country anthem. To be honest, I’m not a fan of country music but grew up in a rural community, so I know all about having friends in low places. There were also a few books this month that I’d like to drop-kick to low places too.
I live the real world. It is glorious. It is messy. It is hopeful. It is oppressive. But it is real. But … we are all also characters in an Unreal World too. A world where the sun always shines, lives are perfect and every damn person has good news to share. It is aspirational, but it also a big, fat lie. Yet we believe. We hold our lives against this mythical world that only exists in our social media feeds, television shows and the movies. We discover our lives don’t compare and believe we’re not enough or unworthy or doing something wrong. We lie about how perfect our lives are as we stand hip-deep in caca. No more. It’s time to get real, people.
Farewell, March. See ya next year. Honestly, where did March go, people? It’s cliche but it’s true: time flies. One moment we’re easing into March and two seconds later April rent is due. 🙂 Still, all in all, March was a good, busy month for me, so I shouldn’t complain. You’ll note that I said shouldn’t, not that I wouldn’t. You always gotta read the fine print, my friends. HA!
Just wanted to drop a quick line to wish Happy Easter to those who celebrate the holiday. May the Easter Bunny leave you a nice basket full of yummy dark chocolate. 🙂 I’ve been working extra hard this week to cram five days of work into four, so I can enjoy a long 3-day weekend. My plan is to relax, read (got a pile of books that I can’t wait to get my mitts on), eat and snuggle with Max. After all, we all need a little down time, right? I thought so.
“I am not enough.” This is a belief/myth that has followed me around my entire life. It is my constant companion, whispering in my ear, “I am not enough. I’m not enough. I’m not enough. Be more. Do more. You’re a fraud. You’ll never be enough”. Because I’m … a woman, a person of color, not a size 0 … the list goes on. I know this is bullsh*t, but still … I believe: “I’m not enough”. And I’m really tired of it. It’s time to Rise Strong.