Reading isn’t about quantity for me (I set no yearly reading goals) but enjoyment, and sometimes you go through a dry patch where nothing appeals to you. Murder? Nope. Ghosts and goblins? Nah. Chuckles galore? Uh-uh. Ooey gooey love story? Groddy to the max. Something enlightening or inspiring? Errrr … okay, I’ll try it. But I won’t promise to like it or read it. Maybe I’ll just pet the book lovingly and eventually read a page if I’m feeling feisty.
I Did It! I Read a Book. A Whole Book!
Yup. I read one book. That’s right ONE book. Go Tanya!
Reasons to Stay Alive by Matt Haig
Book Review: I generally have three responses to books dealing with depression: 1). I become a real-live bobblehead and nod my head until dizzy. 2). It feels like nails on a chalkboard and I cannot bear it. 3). I give zero f*cks about your sh&t because I’m struggling with my own sh&t.
I felt all of the above with this book, which makes it really hard for me to review. Haig is very honest, and forthcoming about his experiences with depression and anxiety. The way he explains how depression and anxiety feels is very vivid, although my experiences didn’t mirror his exactly (and he rightly states at the beginning that everyone experiences depression differently). Sometimes reading about someone else’s experiences is a helpful reminder that I am not alone. That the weirdness I felt (feel) in my head is not my imagination or some secret shame I need to bear alone, but a disease many people experience through no fault of their own. And that’s an important fact to remember and repeat often.
To Read or Not To Read: I’m a big believer that you do (or read) whatever helps you get through your depression, whether it’s reading a book about depression or something silly or murdery or scary or super sexy. The first part of the book was tough for me to get through because I really didn’t care to be reminded what depression felt like, although it might be helpful to someone who has never experienced it. Or it may freak the hell out of them.
To More Good Books
I’m traveling home to Minnesota to celebrate Christmas with my family and hopefully I’ll be able to tackle some of my NetGalley books. Or not. 😀 Either way, my fingers are crossed that my reading mojo returns in 2019 and I start loving books once again. As usual, I’m joining the Show Us Your Books Link-Up hosted by Jana and Steph. Be sure to visit the link-up and see what everyone is reading and recommending.
What was the best book you read last month?