2019! You’re finally here! Thank you sweet baby Jesus! 2018 was not my best year if I’m being honest. No recap because more things sucked than did not suck (apparently I was not the only one who experienced this either). And I am, generally speaking, a glass half-full kind of girl. But not last year. Nope. Last year sucked and I have no desire to relive it.
Many of my blogging buddies kicked off the new year by sharing their 2019 goals and/or word for the year, which I’ve enjoyed reading tremendously. They inspired me, because even though I was eager for a fresh new year, my grumpy 2018 mindset remained in place.
After all, I ended 2018 heavier than I started it, and I’m not sure if I accomplished a single goal last year but ……. but …… but …
I’m still here.
Alive.
Not at my best.
Not at my worst either.
I am aware.
Which may not seem like much but it is.
It’s means I’m blessed.
Because I’ve been numb.
And indifferent.
Anxiety-ridden.
And paralyzed by the what ifs.
But right now I am aware.
And that is something to celebrate.
To hold onto.
A Return to Form in 2019
I don’t want to be here one year later with the same old woe is me story of another year gone with little achieved. I truly want 2019 to be different and return to the old me, where I look back upon a completed year with pride. I’m not naive; good and bad things happen every year. It’s my hope, though, that 2019 will be more good than bad, more focused than not (and I know that’s up to me) and more joyful than merely existing.
Because of the my 2018 grumpy mindset hangover, I haven’t fully fleshed out goals/word for the year (I typically don’t set resolutions) for 2019, but they are a work in progress. And I will share them once they fully formed and ready to go.
How would you describe your 2018? What are you most excited for in 2019?
Tanya
yup there are always bad things that are going to happen in a year: someone we love will die (even if it’s a famous singer or our favorite actress/actor), Trump will have done 5 billion awful things, there will be turmoil in other parts of the world.. I think the biggest challenge but one that will benefit everyone is the focus of what only YOU can control. Yes, easier said than done and I’m guilty of letting external factors “ruin” my day, week, or year. But in any case, I hope 2019 is a better year for you. My last year’s one world is probably roller coaster. lol! Well, technically that’s two. And I think you know what I’m looking forward to next…I mean this year! Hope you find your word or theme too!
One thing I really need to do this year is exactly what you said – focus on what I can control. I spend way too much time worrying about things that I can’t control (like Trump), which leaves me unmotivated and uninterested in doing things that make me happy. I most definitely know what you’re looking forward to this year. LA will be glad to have you back!
what i love about a new year is that we have 365 chances to make our lives better…all it takes is a small thing that makes us happy each day. it can be anything – a haircut, a massage, a hug from a loved one.
happy new year! hope you kick 2019’s butt!!
That’s a great point, Kathy. Every day is a new day and every day we have a chance to do something for ourselves and to be grateful for the many things we do have and that go right in our lives.
Amen that 2018 is over!!!!!
2019 is going to be better, I can feel it 🙂
Yes, it is. We’re going to make it better, right?!?! 😀
I think 2016 was a shit year (the end anyway), 2017 felt just as bad, and 2018 was a time of bleh. I’m very hopeful that people feel better in 2019. Lord knows we all need it. I was super busy with work so I was distracted during this whirlwind year, but I’d like to be present and aware and positive in 2019!
I feel the same way about 2016, 2017 and 2018. We need a shift because we definitely need it! I want to be more positive in 2019 too!
Every year is good and bad but 2018 was not a favorite here either.
Cheers to better in 2019!
2018 seems to have been all-around sucky for most people. Good things certainly happened but so did so much crap. Blah. Over it. Here’s to a better 2019 too!
I’m most excited about 2019 that 2018 is behind!!!
Amen, sister. Amen!
2018 wasn’t so bad for me, but I’m always excited about a new year. I know that you read my Intentions for 2019 post and I’m really hoping to stick with goals list and really embrace my word of the year!
I always love the start of a new year. So many possibilities! I really want to focus on being more positive and grateful this year. And be better at letting go of what I cannot control instead of getting obsessive about it. Good luck with your goals, Nancy! I can’t wait to see how you do!
i am with you – i truly want 2019 to be a good year, i want to be happy/positive at the end of the year regardless of what ‘happens’ to me this year. you know? i want to be happy about the things i can control. anywho. like you said, more joyful than merely existing. that’s the goal. here’s to 2019!
Girl, I am with you 100%. I want to feel happy and positive at the end of year, knowing that good, wonderful, awful and horrible things will have happened and yet I’m still feeling good. Let’s do this, Kristen!