2019! You’re finally here! Thank you sweet baby Jesus! 2018 was not my best year if I’m being honest. No recap because more things sucked than did not suck (apparently I was not the only one who experienced this either). And I am, generally speaking, a glass half-full kind of girl. But not last year. Nope. Last year sucked and I have no desire to relive it.
Many of my blogging buddies kicked off the new year by sharing their 2019 goals and/or word for the year, which I’ve enjoyed reading tremendously. They inspired me, because even though I was eager for a fresh new year, my grumpy 2018 mindset remained in place.
After all, I ended 2018 heavier than I started it, and I’m not sure if I accomplished a single goal last year but ……. but …… but …
I’m still here.
Not at my best.
Not at my worst either.
I am aware.
Which may not seem like much but it is.
It’s means I’m blessed.
Because I’ve been numb.
And paralyzed by the what ifs.
But right now I am aware.
And that is something to celebrate.
To hold onto.
A Return to Form in 2019
I don’t want to be here one year later with the same old woe is me story of another year gone with little achieved. I truly want 2019 to be different and return to the old me, where I look back upon a completed year with pride. I’m not naive; good and bad things happen every year. It’s my hope, though, that 2019 will be more good than bad, more focused than not (and I know that’s up to me) and more joyful than merely existing.
Because of the my 2018 grumpy mindset hangover, I haven’t fully fleshed out goals/word for the year (I typically don’t set resolutions) for 2019, but they are a work in progress. And I will share them once they fully formed and ready to go.
How would you describe your 2018? What are you most excited for in 2019?